Hello.
First off, let me introduce myself. I’m mommarch, like monarch, but a mommy. Actually, first time mommy. I am currently 5 months pregnant and needed something to spend time on that doesn’t require dodging cigarette smokes, crazy partying people, and just the normal every day things that a pregnant lady shouldn’t be around.
I am happily married since 2011 to a wonderful and supportive husband. Not trying to brag but I think I got lucky with this one 🙂 He’s been a friend since we were young and one day we found out we were actually a very good match for each other; went on a date and fell in love right away.
We have this upcoming baby, and well, I’ve learned that a lot can happen in just five months. I am currently making a pile of decisions about my next moves: how much time-off am I taking from work, am I going to be able to afford childcare, what am I going to do about school?
Yes, school. I just got accepted to a university and got a grant and I’ve even been considered for a scholarship! None of which, by the way, that I applied for (besides the school of course, and I applied way before I even knew I was going to have a baby this year). And the other thing, fall classes begin the same time baby arrives.
Oh, the agony of giving up my career and education. But, they say, having a baby is definitely a blessing. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve loved this little one since the day I had the feeling I should take a pregnancy test. The only thing is, my husband and I were not planning this lifestyle so soon.
But then again, whose plans ever really go AS planned? Right? Some lucky ones I’m sure. But it’s those tiny little surprises that bring the most into our futures. This is the path that was given to me.
And what I keep telling myself is that, I landed my dream job out of the blue. Literally, out of the blue. I took a chance one day and left a job I was miserable in and drove to this office I used to intern for about 7 years ago and met with the CEO and the manager, left them my resume, and next thing you know it, I got a phone call from them asking when I would like to start. I never thought I could actually work there permanently. Ending that internship years ago was a heartbreaking moment because I really fell in love with the field and every one else that I worked with. And now, it’s mine… PERMANENTLY. What am I going to do if I can’t afford childcare and would have to be a stay-at-home mom and leave my dream job? Is being a stay-at-home mom really that bad? Maybe this is the path I’m supposed to be on. If I could land this job once, I could land it again. Right?
And the same goes for the school. I can take a year off. If I can land an acceptance at my dream school with a grant to cover my fees and possibly a scholarship as well, I can get it again, right?
Or am I simply passing up a chance now?
See why I need this blog? I hope you guys can stick around to see what happens in the next few months, or even in the next few years.
These are just some of the simple questions I have that come with being a mom at 26.
When you thought you’ve got it all figured out, think again.
‘Till next time,
Mommarch